Miss Aℓmost, Miss Maybe, Miss Haℓfway.

Hi, we're 8. darjah dua.

2012-01-26T23:18:00.000+08:00

"Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart."

Happy 8th anniversary, dear.

Wordless Wednesday

2012-01-18T12:00:00.001+08:00

My Weekly Routine

The best mashed potato in town

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Paku Dulang Paku Serpih

2012-01-03T20:00:00.000+08:00

Hmmmmm.

Amalina has becomea hot topic since last night. She has even become TT on twitter for a few hoursand a top search on Google. Talk people, talk. Talk all you can. I don’t mindif you are qualified to make such harsh statements on her but surprisingly, sesetengahnyadua kali lima lah. Nak memberi komen,boleh. Pastikan awak layak untuk memberi komen. Tak ada orang nak pandangserong pada awak pun, sebab awak memang layak untuk bersuara, bercakapberlandaskan ilmu. Tapi kalau awak pun tunggang terbalik melintang pukang adahati nak mengomen, nak mengumpat, macam mana tu?

Now look who’stalking. And yes, I am judging you by your avatar, just like you judge thatgirl by her pictures.

...

Here comes the kepochi.

*drum rolls*

Wahhhh. Siap ‘there you go’ lagi, kelas kau Senah!!

Bukan main share sana sharesini. Cepat je engkau share kalau benda mengaibkan. Kalau info bermanfaat macamspesis baru leaproach aka lipas melompat tu kau tak share pulak?

Lesson of the day: Beringatlahbila nak berkongsi personal stories or photos. Tak semua orang kau bolehpercaya.

We just have one life. Be safe, silly.

2011-12-30T17:12:00.000+08:00

Do you seriously think life works this way?

Sometimes, expressing our real thought can cause WWIII. Andto avoid any ugly situation, keeping your mouth shut and praying real hard thatthe other person can read your mind is the only safe choice that you have.

Do you seriously think that comment like “Hey, can I behonest with you? You look really ugly today, like uglier than a bulldog” willmake the other person smile and just walk away? No. You should expect her fistkissing your not-so-pretty-either-face, at least thrice, only then she willwalk away.

Can I really dial Edward Cullen’s number and like ‘Hiiiiiiiwanna meet up? Let hang out together, Dataran Pahlawan, say, 2pm, tomorrow?”?No, of course.

Do you really think by explaining, people will understandyou? No. Happened to me quite a few times where explanation alone is notenough. To make your explanation loud and clear, it must be accompanied by afew punches or a dozen kicks. Literally. Because the definition of ‘YES’ or ‘NO’for every person might not be the same. When I say A, the other person mightinterpret it as Z. When I say ‘YES’, the other person might think it as ‘NO’. So, how lah?

See?

There’s no such thing as ‘why complicate life?’ becauselife IS complicated as it is.

No shortcut to an easier life.

You just have to deal with it.

We just have one life.

Be safe, silly.

So long, 2011.

2011-12-29T21:54:00.000+08:00

2011 almost comes to its end. A lot has happened withinthese 12 months. Friends come and go – I make some new friends, I lost some,and some will definitely stay forever. Some things change, some things don’t. A few major changes in my life:

#1, Family has permanently moved to Kedah, Jitra to beexact. For good. The definition of ‘home’ is totally different from now on. Andthe excitement of ‘going home’ is no longer the same. I grew up in Kuching. Myfirst friend, my first enemy, my first fight, my first cry – all those preciousmoments - happened in Kuching. So of course, leaving Kuching is not an easydecision.

#2, Ramadhan used to be my favourite month. It used tobring a lot of happiness but it turned 360 degrees and it decided to bringsadness in my life. So you are officially not my favourite month anymore.

#3, I moved out from the school quarters. Another harddecision to be made but somehow I managed to get over all the messes and thanksto family & friends for the endless support. And oh, I am no longerattached to the commitment. Double joy. YAY.

Hopefully 2012 will bring a lot more happiness and joyousmoments.

Insyallah.

#facepalm

2011-12-23T12:02:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is the day every studenthates.

The Examination Day.

So today I woke up earlier than usual,hoping I can cover everything by 6pm.

Sitting in front of the laptopsince 6am and download the lecture notes. Too many lecture notes I almost crymyself to sleep again. Arranged the notes in the correct folders. Wahh, setapakmenghampiri kejayaan! Dah ada lecture notes! Berjaya Berjaya! So I decided toreward myself with some latest entertainment news. Started with Youtube,jumping from one video to another, from unethical Puii video to educational Chemistryvideo. And then blogwalking from one blog to another, and bammm, I ended upwriting a post in my own blog, at 11.31am. And, no, I haven’t started with my revisionyet.

-_-"

Before I turn myself into ahoi-aku-bakal-4.00-oi student, I wanna share something ‘cute’ from Googletranslate. 80’s babies should be familiar with this song. And this is a directtranslation of the song.

Seriously Google translate? Mati yang sangat perlahandan sangat kuat? Rasa sakit tulen? I wonder how rasa sakit palsu feels like.

Dear Mr-know-it-allkonon-konon genius Google,

Nah, facepalm banyak-banyakuntuk kau!

Colors & Promises

2011-12-20T13:03:00.000+08:00

Last week, the world is shaken with the news of a gaymarriage between a male Muslim student and his non-Muslim boyfriend. I am notjudging him or anything, but the idea of marrying someone with the same gender israther uncomfortable to me. Who will be the husband? Who will be the wife? Who willdo the house chores? Who will watch football all night? Who will propose andwho will say “I do”? Same-sex couplings don't usuallyresult in offspring - don’t you want kids? Is it possible that someone borngay? Or is gay can be nurtured? What do see in him/her that makes you soattracted to him/her? Obsessing over someone who happens to have the same sexas yours, to the extent of marriage is beyond my understanding. Make meunderstand this, please.

Thousand questions running through my mind, leftunanswered.

May you find happiness in your marriage, anyway.

x x x

Talking about marriage, tons of friends choose 2011 totie the knot. Congratulations! I am so sorry for not being able to attend all ofthe wedding invitations. May the love you express to each other today, always bethe first thoughts during any trying times in the future! :)

Jerawat bersepah

2011-10-10T18:18:00.001+08:00

Si Polan: "Tadi xxxxxx gelakkan sorang budak sekolah xxxxx tu."
Me: "Kenapa dia gelak?"
Si Polan: "Sebab budak tu gemuk, lepas tu mata dia macam ada problem sikit."

*sigh*

Tak sangka ada lagi makhluk Allah berusia 17 tahun tetapi mentaliti tahap budak tadika Morning Bell.

Dear xxxxxx,
Anugerah tuhan jangan buat main. I know i am not in the best position to talk about this. Tapi dear xxxxxx, rasanya even budak tadika Sinaran pun tahu, tak baik hina kekurangan orang lain, tak baik ejek kecacatan orang lain.

Apa yang awak ada hari ni, badan yang sihat, anggota badan yang sempurna sifat, akal yang cerdas, bila-bila masa sahaja boleh diambil balik. Hari ni awak sihat, jangan yakin sangat esok lusa awak masih sihat.

Entah-entah tengah awak seronok-seronok main bola, tiba-tiba terhantuk tiang gol, koma 5 hari, bangun-bangun dah cacat penglihatan, lupa ingatan. Who knows? Mintak jauh, simpang malaikat 44.

Janganlah. Jangan bangga sangat dengan kesempurnaan yang awak ada. Sempurna sangat ke? Jerawat bersepah.

Ikut hati nak aje saya cakap macam tu.

Agak-agak awak marah tak?

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Girl crush

2011-10-08T20:17:00.000+08:00

Been playing her songs on repeat since the last couple of weeks. :)

You must be kitten me right meow!

2011-10-08T13:19:00.001+08:00

Semua orang tahu aku sayang kucing. Kucing kat tepi jalan on the way the Fresco pun aku sayang. Apatah lagi kucing yang hari-hari aku jumpa (read: kucing cafe, kucing blok G). Aku jarang lempang kucing. Jarang jegilkan mata pada kucing. Boleh dikira dengan jari tangan kanan berapa kali sangat aku ganas dengan kucing.

Tetapi, ada beberapa situasi dimana bila kesabaran aku yang senipis helaian benang tercabar, makanya terjadilah insiden #Lempanglajulaju.

Contoh situasi:
1. Miaow sana miaow sini. Aku bagi makanan kat luar pintu, miaow lagi. Aku buka pintu bagi kau masuk, miaow lagi. Aku bagi Friskies Tuna kat dalam rumah, miaow lagi. Bagi lagi Friskies, miaow lagi. Bagi makanan lain, miaow lagi. Main-main dengan kau sekejap, makin kuat kau miaow. Ishk. Annoying. Pukul manja, miaow lagi. Lempang manja, miaow lagi. #Lempanglajulaju, senyap. Selesai masalah.

2. Suka berjalan di celah-celah kaki manusia. Bersilang-silang di antara kaki kanan dan kaki kiri sampai kau buat kami manusia berjalan macam berjoget. Aku jalan perlahan, kau pun perlahan. Aku jalan laju, kau pun jalan laju. Hoi. Jalan kan luas, apa masalah kau nak jugak jalan kat celah kaki aku? Tolak manja, tak berganjak. #Lempanglajulaju, lari. Menyorok belakang pasu. Selesai masalah.

Begitu juga dengan manusia. Aku jarang berkasar dengan manusia. Aku sayang semua manusia. Tetapi, dalam sesetengah situasi yang hoi-apa-masalah-kau membuatkan kesabaran aku mencapai paras bahaya lampu merah dah kelip kelip beep beep. Apa yang aku dapat simpulkan, tak semua manusia ada ability untuk faham bila kita bagi hint secara sopan, bila kita tegur cara baik.

Mungkin sedikit kekasaran dapat menyelesaikan masalah. Lantak pi lah kalau orang nak kata kita kurang ajar, dah kalau bahasa sopan pun kau tak faham, nak buat macam mana, kan?

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DAY FOUR

2011-10-06T20:50:00.001+08:00

Life is too short for Day 4.
No Day 4 for me today.
My partner is going back to her hometown this weekend.
Maksudnya, there will be no Day 5, Day 6 and Day 7 either.

Get a broom and hit me now.
kbai.

DAY THREE

2011-10-05T18:57:00.001+08:00

Today is Wordless Wednesday. So i shouldn't be explaining the pictures below.

Toodles!

*cepat-cepat lari jauh-jauh*

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DAY TWO

2011-10-04T20:47:00.001+08:00

Kejayaan disusuli kegagalan. -_-"

Kejayaan - 45mins. :)
Kegagalan - Dinner sup daging + NASI. :(

"Fiza! You order nasi?!"
"Hehehehehehehe jemput makan..."

Haruslah hehehehe itu disambut dengan gelengan kepala enjin turbo.

Hehehehehehe.. Esok kita cuba lagi.

Aja!

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DAY ONE

2011-10-03T23:55:00.001+08:00

Might as well jot it down for future reference. Lets see how long can i stay in this madness.

DAY ONE:
30 minutes.
Went home feeling like a sotong.

Off to bed now.
Good night!

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Problem solved!

2011-09-22T18:10:00.000+08:00

Not everybody has the ability to understand sarcasm.

Don’t believe me?

Here’s one of the simplest proof.

Situation 1:

Student: “Cikgu, boleh tak saya keluar awal sikit? Saya adaxxxx kejap lagi.”

Me: “Pergi lah. Awak kan dah pandai chapter ni, kan?”

Student: “Boleh la.”

See how funny can some people be?

.

2011-09-21T14:01:00.002+08:00

Haha.

The most awkward moment, ever.

Happen to me quite a few times.

2011-09-20T21:14:00.000+08:00

current addiction. :)

Luahan hati seorang manusia suku abad

2011-09-20T19:37:00.001+08:00

Another post written in serious dan ayat-ayat skema ye. Al-maklumlah, dah 25, so I should act my age.

Dikekelilingi dengan wanita-wanita yang bergelar ibu, somehow membuka mata saya pada erti kematangan. Terlalu ketara perbezaannya di antara wanita yang bergelar ibu dan wanita yang tidak pernah memikul tanggungjawab yang besar itu.

Banyak yang ada pada mereka, tetapi tiada pada saya.

Kematangan – harus diperbaiki.

Tenang – harus diperbaiki.

Sanggup berkorban – harus diperbaiki.

Mengambil kira semua pihak dalam apa jua keputusan – harus diperbaiki.

Tidak terlalu berkira dalam apa jua perkara – harus diperbaiki.

Tenang dalam menghadapi apa jua situasi – harus diperbaiki.

Tidak menimbulkan sebarang kerumitan – harus diperbaiki.

Jaga hati semua pihak – harus diperbaiki.

And the list goes on and on and on. Terlalu banyak lagi yang perlu diperbaiki.

Terlalu kerdil rasa diri apabila bekerja bersama mereka. Ketenangan dan kematangan mereka dalam mengambil apa jua keputusan amatlah dikagumi. Tak payah nak pening stress marah-marah golek-golek atas lantai untuk menyelesaikan apa jua kerumitan yang timbul. Okay Za? Learn from them. Next time ko jangan nak over konon-konon masalah ko lah yang paling besar sampai pening stress golek-golek atas lantai.

Ko dah 25, Za. Grow up, lah. Malu lah dah suku abad tapi otak standard student darjah satu.

Dikurniakan separuh daripada keistimewaan para ibu-ibu ini, sudah memadailah bagi insan yang cepat gelabah ini.

Oh, on the side note, I miss you my sweet little budak-kecik angel. Dak Jem rindu Aliya. :) It’s only been two days but I miss you already. :')

Ipanema sebesar tapak tangan. :')

My heart is a stereo, hear my thoughts in every note.

2011-09-12T15:24:00.000+08:00

When life gives you lemon, give life whichever finger that you think is suitable.

As for me, I personally prefer to give life my thumbs, indicating I am okay with whatever life throws at me.

When I am in the darkest state of my life, I never thought that I still have that little source of light that help me to find my way out of that deep hole. When I almost trip over myself to the ground, surprisingly I have that invisible pair of hands to hold me up and push me to move forward. Life has never been this harsh on me not until recently. And I never thought that I have the power to forgive not until recently.

What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, they say.

With that saying, I would love to thank those who failed to kill me some time ago because they make me a stronger person today. A few years has passed and only now that I have found that little piece of my heart to forgive each and every one of you for whatever pains you brought into my life. Things happen for a reason and I finally understand the reason god sent me those people; to mold a stronger me.

Thank you.

And…

I learnt a new lesson; nothing is impossible. NOTHING is impossible.

On nom nom

2011-08-23T15:33:00.001+08:00

School assembly during Ramadhan is really challenging.

Jangan marah, cikgu. Jom main game.

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Counting days

2011-08-22T11:08:00.002+08:00

Wahai hamba rakyat sekalian,

Keberangkatan pulang Cik Iza dan Encik Azhar ke tanah tumpahnya darahku adalah pada hari Khamis, bersamaan dengan 25 Ogos 2011 pada jam 1.15pm.

Sekian, sila tepuk tangan.

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Ter-skema opps.

2011-08-20T19:16:00.002+08:00

Tengah marking paper amali Form 5, hence, entri agak skema.

Ada 4 kategori pelajar MRSM dot dot dot.

Yang pertama, jenis pandai sombong. Kononnya dah pandai sangat, nota dah tak payah salin. Dalam kelas tidur pun tak apa. Pandang slack pada kawan-kawan yang lemah. Duduk sekali pun taknak, tak payah cakap lah nak share ilmu. Coursework tak hantar pun no problem. Hilang 10% coursework, apalah sangat, score lah paper betul-betul, katanya. Belagak gila seolah-olah Oxford University lah tempat awak.

Yang kedua, jenia pandai humble. Jumpa cikgu bagi salam, tak lah main langgooo je. Coursework semua hantar. Before exam rajin jumpa cikgu-cikgu, nak mantapkan ilmu yang ada. Sejuk hati semua cikgu-cikgu.

Yang ketiga, jenis kurang bijak tapi humble. Sedar diri kurang pandai, makanya selalu lah datang ke bilik guru, top up lagi ilmu yang terkurang. Salah mintak maaf. Coursework semua hantar sebab 10% woooo! Banyak tu 10%! Kerja semua buat walaupun A sampai Z salah. Tak kisah lah, asalkan buat. Cikgu-cikgu sanggup ajar awak sampaiiii pandai. No problem setakat burn sejam dua masa cikgu-cikgu awak.

Jenis terakhir, jenis bodoh sombong. Extra class tak nak datang. Kerja tak pernah hantar. 10%? Apa tu? Bercakap macam dia sorang bijak pandai. Ilmu setakat sebesar zarah gebang seluruh kampung kata yang awak tu pandai, sebab pelajar sekolah MRSM dot dot dot. Dalam dewan exam, masa tidur lebih banyak daripada masa menjawab.

Exam dah nak dekat, anak-anak, adik-adik. Berubah lah. Tak dapat jadi kategori yang kedua, jadi yang ketiga pun tak apa. Apa yang kami boleh bantu, kami bantu. Mintak maaf lah kalau ada terkasar, terkurang ajar. Ya, cikgu-cikgu awak bukan lah sesiapa pun nak restu-restu, tapi percaya lah pada restu cikgu.

Berapa hari tinggal?

Kira sendiri.

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A fragment of light

2011-08-17T23:39:00.000+08:00

When nothing seems to work, the best option is to just give up. When nothing seems to go your way, maybe you are walking on the wrong path. You might be spending too much time staring at the wrong door while the right door is there all along, waiting for you on the other side of the wall. It’s not that you didn’t try. You’ve tried. Hard enough you now have zero strength in you. Nil. Zero. Nada. Kosong. Your heart is now empty. You are now exhausted fighting for something that doesn’t seem to cooperate with you. You’ve gave the best you could, you’ve tried the best you could. You’ve reached your limit. But still, it doesn’t feel right. You’ve tried too much even 11:11 is mocking you and your fingers are laughing their hearts out at you right now.

It's not that you didn't try.

So giving up might be the only option that you have.

Might be.

If only we could foresee future.

If only we could just google “what will happen to me in the next 5 years?”

If only.

We should not be afraid of changes. THEY SAY. Do not doubt your own decision. THEY SAY. If you make the right decision, then it’s good for you. But if you happen to make the wrong decision, just go with the flow. THEY SAY. Believe in light at the end of the tunnel. Long tunnel short tunnel, let’s just god decide. THEY SAY.

A few (not so good) advices given to my ‘weak’ students:

“It’s okay to give up on science subjects. You are a good debater. You would make a great lawyer, trust me. Trust yourself. Have faith in yourself.”

“It’s okay to give up on science subjects. You can draw. You would make a great architect. Or artist. Who knows?”

So sayangs, it’s okay to give up on science subjects. It’s not the end of the world. Three more months. Three more months and then you are free. Forget Chemistry. Forget Biology. Forget Physics. Three more months. Bertahan. Berusahalah sehabis baik. Berilah sedaya yang ada. Telanlah segala pahit. Terimalah segala yang mendatang. Three more months.

Three more months.

So let’s start counting.

NINETY.

Timon and Pumba

2011-08-13T13:13:00.000+08:00

Have a great day, kawan-kawan!

and oh.

i bought myself a sewing machine.

and i've spent my whole night sewing a tote.

will blog about it later.

complicated creatures?

2011-08-07T23:36:00.000+08:00

Three pictures describing how complicated women are.

No ladies and gentlemen. I do not agree with the word complicated. We, women, are not complicated creatures. We are naturally born with just a LITTLE complex and thorough way of thinking.

Okay.

Maybe a little complicated.

We rarely take yes or no as an answer. We need at least a paragraph of reasons to support your yes or your no. Only then we will accept your yes or your no and analyze your reasons for a few seconds before we ask thousands more questions, just to support the first question.

That’s not complicated. That’s… something else.

There’s no big or small in our dictionary; How big is big? How small is small? That is wayyyy too confusing for us. That’s why we give precise measurement, or at least we make a comparison, like, “a shoe box size of food container” not “a big food container”.

That’s not complicated. There’s nothing wrong with being exact and accurate, no?

We prefer details rather than big pictures. Example, “A Tangerine tote with 2 big compartments and 2 small compartments. The big compartments are for purse and make up. The small compartments are for keys and lipsticks.” See? It’s not just a typical handbag for us.

That’s not complicated. We just… love details.

Talking about bag. Do you, men, know that there are thousands, okay scratch that, hundreds of different bags? We have tote, backpack, clutch, hobo bag, sling bag, satchel, and a lot more. And we have a looooong list of footwear too – we have wedges, ballerinas, gladiator heels, peep-toe heels, flats, pumps, slingbacks, booties, flip-flops, loafers, et cetera.

That’s not complicated. Those things ARE different from each other, can’t you see that?

Of course you can’t.

Haiyoo.

How lah like this?

We have Chemistweeeeeeeeeeeee.

2011-08-06T23:04:00.002+08:00

Never thought that pigs can be so adorable when they are wearing head accessories. :) I bet there would be pig in 6 inches heels, Levi’s jeans, or even LBD, coming soon.

Selamat melastik!

One body, two souls.

2011-08-06T21:02:00.001+08:00

Say hi to Abigail and Brittany Hensel, the conjoined twins of whom each has a separate head, but whose bodies are joined. Despite all difficulties and unfriendly stares they might get from the people around them, they still live their life to the fullest. That doesn't stop them from enjoying their life to bits.

This is truly inspiring. :') For more info, please visit your one and only source into the scandalous lives of Manhattan's elite.

No.

I am just kidding, it's Wikipedia.

Gah.

Angry Birds fever. LMAO!

2011-08-06T01:10:00.000+08:00

Ini cerita Ramadhan saya. Anda bagaimana?

2011-08-04T23:52:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah, rezeki Ramadhan, berbuka berteman.

These are meals for two. Bilangan juadah agak melampau di situ. Hehe.

Biarlah, asalkan perut kenyang, hati pun senang. :)

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Dejavu

2011-07-29T18:46:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, I received a very bad news from a friend. It's like dejavu, the whole disastrous scene playing all over again in my head. The scene i would never want to remember even a second of it, the scene i would love to have them all erased.

People gets tired eventually, you see. The world doesn't revolve around you so you have no right to treat everybody like they are khadam to you.

Just so you know, if you happen to read this post lah, i gave up on this friendship a looooong long time ago. Pray hard that she has a tougher heart that she won't do the same as i did.

Which is, like, impossible?

Pray a little harder.

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Mimpi indah ya, anak kecil.

2011-07-24T23:02:00.001+08:00

Read a blog shared by my former mate from university.

A very heartbreaking story I cried hard reading it.

May you rest in peace, little buddy.

Untuk renungan kita bersama.

Hargailah yang tersayang selagi mereka masih bernafas di bumi Allah.

Zahirkanlah kasih sayang sama ada dari segi kata-kata, perbuatan, ataupun doa.

Maafkanlah mereka jika disakiti; segeralah memohon maaf seandainya menyakiti.

Berdoalah sebelum tidur semoga masih diberi peluang untuk menikmati keindahan dunia bersama yang tersayang pada keesokkan harinya.

Just keep pushing on.

2011-07-24T19:23:00.000+08:00

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

God. What have i gotten myself into?

i think i am going to explode anytime soon.

Red pen, you again.

2011-07-22T09:40:00.004+08:00

I miss those days where i have no life and i can finish marking these answer scripts in just two to three days. 125 scripts in just three days. How awesome is that? I mean pathetically awesome because i have nothing much to do with my life and my only best friend is my red pen. And facebook. And TV series. Boooooo.

It's only been three years and i already have thisssssss much exhaustion in me?

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I try to make a move just to stay in the game

2011-07-17T22:36:00.002+08:00

Currect addiction:

one:

two:

I love you.

2011-07-16T23:26:00.003+08:00

Death of a loved one.

A very throbbing life experience not everyone can deal with. It happened to my friend’s younger sister. The couple has been married for less than a year and now she is five months pregnant. It happened very fast from the time the doctor told her that her husband had serious illness to the time he passed away – one night.

One freaking night.

So sudden and unexpected.

And if I were in her position, I don’t know how the hell would I cope with it. I don’t think I have that much strength within me to face the reality. I can’t even picture how miserable my life would be.

Simpang malaikat empat puluh empat, minta dijauhkan segala bala.

Well life is funny that way. One day you are the happiest person on the earth, and life can take them all back the next day.

All we can do is always be prepared of what life might throw at us.

Before you go to bed:

One, apologize to your loved ones – directly or indirectly.

Two, tell them how much you love them – again, directly or indirectly – because life is too short for avoidable regrets. You don’t know when it’s going to be the last time you have the chance to tell them you love them. You can express your love either with words or gestures or even in your doa.

And the most important thing is, three, forgive your loved ones even though how upset they make you feel.

because...

There’s nothing more upsetting than waking up one morning realizing he/she is gone, forever - and you don’t even have the chance anymore to do all the actions above.

It's just a song

2011-07-12T23:56:00.001+08:00

That awkward moment when that song is playing on my playlist.

I try to keep myself busy with the ringtones and stuff but still the thought keeps wrestling its way into my mind.

That very day, that very moment, that very feeling, that very punitive silence, that very melancholy soul staring outside the window, trying hard to hide all the feelings inside, that very sadness so deep and true I ached from the power of it. My throat so tight I can barely speak. My throat ached from holding back the tears. The heaviness on my chest that grew worst with each passing second.

Everything is still so fresh; my mind can’t seem to find a way to erase that one tiny mini little dark memory even though I try to replace it with tons of other good memories.

Never underestimate the power of music.

Superhero

2011-07-09T19:28:00.001+08:00

I miss adek.
I need him to unlock this.
He's the superhero of all-games-you-name-it of our family.

Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Dear Apple. Sincerely, noob.

2011-07-07T19:41:00.001+08:00

I should have done it on the very first day I bought my phone which is 19 months ago. -_-"

I spent 19 months of my life playing trial version or lite version of games and apps when actually I can download the full version for FREE! I repeat, FREE!

Moral of the story, do not be afraid of trying something risky because it turns out to be not that risky after all. Do not listen to others. Do not get easily influenced by others.

And the most important thing is, do not try to do it yourself if you have zero knowledge about it. Hah. Cuak gila bila phone hang. Kan dah x pasal-pasal hantar format, habis segala harta benda yang dah dikumpul 19 bulan. :’(

anyway,

Bye bye App Store!

Sincerely, noob.

karma

2011-06-27T22:16:00.002+08:00

What goes around comes around, what goes up must come down, said Alicia Keys.

What goes around comes back around, said Justin.

And Darren Hayes said, I believe in karma what you give is what you get returned.

So just you wait.

Just stop for a minute and... smile.

2011-06-26T23:08:00.003+08:00

Hi rakan taulan, i am back.

The big sister is back.

Currently listening to Grenade full blast and I feel like smashing everything around me, everything in sight. Just now when Price Tag was playing I automatically grinning from ear to ear and my head moved retardedly. And now when Almost lover is playing, I close my eyes and all I can see is darkness and a dim light at the end of a tunnel. See how music speaks what cannot be expressed with words? And see how many different kind of emotions I bottled up inside?

25 and already all stressed out with all sort of craps life throws at me.

Pathetic.

Need more of this to untangle all the knots in my head.

I had a very good time, friends.

Thank you.

Dengarlah dunia berkata-kata

2011-05-09T20:37:00.000+08:00

I have an instinct that you and your Bruno-kind-of-husky voice is going to win this season.

Twatif? - "The Office"

2011-05-05T13:46:00.001+08:00

LMAO! this is epic!

Thanks to obe.

Hilang stress aku baca blog kau.

Dani Shay

2011-05-01T13:33:00.000+08:00

Another Justin Bieber Parody, and heck dearest Dani Shay, you do look like Justin Bieber!

Okay, to be honest, I don’t really understand why ohhh why does everybody hate him THAT much.

I think he’s cool, in his own cute and girlish way.

So what’s the problem with that?

2:15

2011-04-30T20:29:00.004+08:00

2:15 "Kate... one more... one more kiss... come on."

awwwwwwwwww.

"We still thought fairy tales could come true".

2011-04-30T19:45:00.002+08:00

I used to believe in fairy tales.

But as I grow older, life taught me a few lessons proving that there’s no such thing as fairy tales, so I stop believing in them.

But yesterday, Kate proves me wrong.

Fairy tales can come true.

Cinderella

Sleeping Beauty

Snow White

Rapunzel

Prince William and Kate

9 January 1982 – 29 April 2011: Miss Catherine Middleton

29 April 2011 – present: Her Royal Highness The Duchess of Cambridge

:')

who would've thought, eh? :)

Where there's a will, there's a way.

2011-04-26T17:53:00.000+08:00

congratulations, love!

Hachiko, A dog's story.

2011-04-20T22:57:00.000+08:00

Thanks to my brother for the recommendation.

Kau yang konon-kononnya tough & macho pun sedih, ni pulak aku, kan.

Haruslah berjujuran dan ber-jejeh-an segalanya.

Highly recommended kepada semua pencinta haiwan di segenap pelusuk alam.

I love you too.

2011-04-17T21:06:00.002+08:00

Tak semua benda kita boleh kongsi.

Tak semua benda kita boleh cerita.

Cuma nak kata…

I am probably the happiest woman on earth at this very moment. You can almost read the neon light on my forehead – “HAPPY”. The joy is deeper that the ocean and higher than the mountains in the world combined. And the joy literally flooded my veins, spreading into the bloodstream and travel joyously into my heart and soul.

Thanks to you, the man who has private access to my deepest thought.

I love you too.

Hi, April. It's me again.

2011-04-13T14:09:00.002+08:00

I learn something new today.

Remember how we love to eat the last piece of cake or fruit or any food hoping Insyallah one day Allah will grant us suami soleh or isteri solehah?

Kakak 1: “Cepat habiskan kek ni, satu je tinggal, nanti dapat suami soleh.”

Kakak 2: “Ehh orang tua-tua dulu cakap siapa makan the last piece nanti jadi old-maid.”

Terus tak jadi aku nak ambik, kan.

Nauzubillah min dzalik.

Sumpah aku dah tak nak dah makan makanan yang the last piece.

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku,

Kau permudahkanlah jalan hidup kami, Ya Allah.

Hi, April.

2011-04-01T22:35:00.001+08:00

I don’t feel like writing much these days. I don’t feel like reading much either. I spent my 2 weeks holiday killing zombies, torturing birds and pigs, watching movies (my biggest achievement is 10 movies in a day!), playing with the yittle monshters, and many more non-academic activities.

I need to find the passion back.

And oh. Yittle monshters, nanti kakak cerita pasal awak, okay? I miss you. :)

Fasha letih..Fasha nak sandar. lol

2011-03-17T17:57:00.000+08:00

LMAOROTF!

The longest 20 mins of my life.

2011-03-15T23:56:00.001+08:00

The corn is removed!
Final-effing-ly!
And I pray to God never in my life would I have to go through such experience ever again.

The first two injections were hell. But then, the surgical procedure wasn’t painful, but the idea of a doctor stitching me alive is unendurable. I can feel the doctor remove the corn by peeling it by using a blade, (I saw the blade, a medium size blade, a 15mm size blade if I am not mistaken, I heard the doctor and the nurse talking in medical language I don’t understand except for the word ‘blade’ and my brain interpreted it as ‘pain’) and the nurse kept on wiping my foot, blood I suppose. I didn’t dare open my eyes to witness the whole procedure but I can feel the doctor scratching, peeling, and stitching. And the idea of me having a hole in my foot send a shiver down my spine. Tapi doctor dah jahit, how come ada hole lagi? Imagination oh imagination.

The doctor warned me not to be so relieved because the numbness won’t last forever and the pain will eventually come, a few hours after the surgery, which is now. :’( Dang it, too painful I have to hold my breath for a few seconds when the pain strikes, which is like 3 to 4 times per minute. The painkiller doesn’t really work. And I think I’ve ruined the stitches by walking too much and leaving a hole there. There goes my imagination again.

On a side note, the medical fee is outrageously expensive! sabau je lah. -_-"

And the worst part is, I’m going back to Johor this Saturday. Help me. :|

say hello to my 1k+ wound. :|

Beautiful monshters

2011-03-13T23:04:00.002+08:00

Hi, i am home!

Bila dah ada kat Kuching, haruslah ada checklist. :)

Checklist :

1. Lots of Emilio Valentino - checked!

2. Mee kolok Bimmers

3. Laksa Sarawak J&J Cafeteria - checked!

4. Have this damn corn removed - huwaa! dah! :'(

5. Capture tons of photos of these yittle monshters!

The list will be updated from time to time.

SONG OF THE DAY:

#thatawkwardmomentwhen

2011-03-09T17:29:00.000+08:00

#terasake? I know I am. LOL

It feels good when you know that one whole world shares the same problem, laughing at the same jokes, agreeing on same issues, no matter where you are from. This is what we should call 1Dunia!

Okay. I don’t have a life. Bye!

Best tak jadi orang dewasa?

2011-03-05T22:14:00.002+08:00

Perhatian: post kali ni mungkin akan membuatkan sesetengah daripada kawan saya muntah darah sebab ingga, eh tapi jangan lupa, separuh daripada darah dalam badan saya ni darah dari Kedah tau. Maka silalah erase perasaan ingga itu. :p

“Emmmm nak tanya, best tak jadi orang dewasa? Saya tak sabar nak jadi dewasa.”

Satu ayat je, dah cukup buat telinga berasap. Eh salah. Satu ayat je, dah cukup buat hati ni terdiam sekejap. Saya dewasa ke? *tutup mata 10 saat teringat zaman persekolahan dulu* Hmmmm. Rasanya saya ni kategori junior-dewasa, maksudnya baru-baru je nak menginjak ke alam dewasa ni.

Sebenarnya, tak seronok jadi orang dewasa. Jadi orang dewasa awak kena jaga hati semuaaaaa orang. Kalau awak tak suka orang tu pun, awak kena buat-buat suka. Paling tak pun, awak jangan tunjuk yang awak tak suka. Sebab… sebab awak dah dewasa.

Sebenarnya, tak seronok jadi orang dewasa. Jadi dewasa awak tak boleh cakap awak tak pandai. Tak kiralah susah mana pun nak buat sesuatu tu, awak kena pandai jugak. Sebab… sebab awak dah dewasa.

Sebenarnya, tak seronok jadi orang dewasa. Jadi dewasa awak kena tabah, kena pandai jaga diri, kena pandai survive. Awak tak boleh call mak dan nangis-nangis komplen itu ini, nanti mak awak risau. Sebab… sebab awak dah dewasa.

Sebenarnya, tak seronok jadi orang dewasa. Jadi orang dewasa awak kena fikir banyaaaaaaaaak aspek sebelum awak buat sesuatu keputusan. Tak boleh fikirkan awak sorang je. Kena fikirkan orang-orang sekeliling yang mungkin akan kena tempias daripada keputusan awak tu. So kena fikir panjang sikit sebelum buat keputusan. Sebab… sebab awak dah dewasa.

Sebenarnya, tak seronok jadi orang dewasa. Jadi orang dewasa ni awak tak boleh malas. Tak kiralah awak malas macam mana pun, somehow awak kena rajin jugak. Awak tak ada pilihan. Awak tak boleh kata “Eh malas lah nak pegi kerja hari ni, tidur lagi best.” Memang lah perasaan malas tu kadang-kadang akan datang, tapi awak tak boleh layan perasaan tu. Sebab… sebab awak dah dewasa.

Sebenarnya, tak seronok jadi orang dewasa. Jadi orang dewasa ni awak tak boleh layan sangat perasaan kebudak-budakan awak tu. Memanglah dalam diri setiap orang ada sedikit sifat childish yang memang tak akan hilang. Kalau awak layan jugak, orang sekeliling akan ingat awak ni gila kot. Awak tak boleh nak buat aksi yang konon-kononnya comel, lambai-lambai comel, mimik muka comel, no no no. Tak boleh. Awak kenalah jadi matang. Sebab… sebab awak dah dewasa.

Sebenarnya, jadi dewasa ni, awak takkan jumpa jawapan untuk semua soalan. Sebab… sebab… err.. tak tahu. ok next!

Tapi… let’s look it from the positive side.

Jadi junior-dewasa lagi seronok daripada jadi senior-dewasa kot.

Kalau jadi senior-dewasa, lagi banyak hati nak kena jaga, kot.

Kalau jadi senior-dewasa, lagi banyak benda yang awak kena pandai, kot.

Kalau jadi senior-dewasa, awak lagi kena tabah, kot.

Kalau jadi senior-dewasa, lagi baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanyak aspek yang awak kena fikir sebelum buat keputusan, kot.

Kalau jadi senior-dewasa, awak dah ada keluarga, dah ada suami, dah ada anak, awak memang langsung tak sempat nak malas, kot.

Kalau jadi senior-dewasa, lagi buruk kalau awak buat muka ala-ala comel, kot.

Saya dulu macam awak jugak. tak sabar nak jadi dewasa. Tak sabar nak ada duit sendiri. Tak sabar nak hidup sendiri. Tapi, sekarang ni terbalik pulak. Saya rindu nak jadi student balik, macam awak.

Kesimpulannya, nikmatilah hidup ni selagi kita bernafas. Tak kira lah student ke, junior-dewasa ke, senior-dewasa ke, tua ke. Kita lihatlah dari sudut yang positif, okay?

Okay, bye!

what are words

2011-03-05T19:00:00.000+08:00

Pesta Layang-Layang Sedunia Pasir Gudang

2011-03-02T20:46:00.001+08:00

Isn't this cute?